Oh Lord, your faithfulness endures through all. You are good, powerful, and I shall never doubt you or your ways, for your faithfulness endures through the bad, the good, the storm, and the calm. Though I have questions that flood my mind, I believe that your faithfulness is good and that your promises still stand. I sit here now patiently waiting, for the things in your plan for my life to occur, but I know who is in control, and I seek to find refuge in your grace, your mercy, and in your love.
How I yearn for the good things that you have created, and I yearn that they will come to be a reality very soon, yet I know what your promises say, so I shall have faith and immerse myself in your goodness. If you can split the sea, then you can make ways in my life, and if you can defeat the grave, then no mountain is too big for you to move into the sea.
“Hear, O Lord, when I cry with my voice!
Have mercy also upon me, and answer me.” Psalm 27:7
As I get older, I wonder more and more. Marriage, children, and the future of my life become my main desires. Forget the riches, I do not want them. Forget the fame, for I could care less on whether I am known, but oh Lord, please give me a family, and my heart shall be content. Oh God, hear my cry, for I hope it’s not much to ask.
To ask for a husband who shall be a godly man who will walk with me closer to you and to ask for children that I pray will accept you. I hope it’s not much to ask, but these are the sincerest desires that are within my heart. Many pray to you about money, recognition, and the list could go on, but God I am just a simple woman asking for a family. I could care less if no one knows my name, and I do not ask for wealth, for the love of money is death.
“Through the Lord’s mercies we are not consumed,
Because His compassions fail not.
They are new every morning;
Great is Your faithfulness.” Lamentations 3:22-23
The deepest yearnings of my heart I hope are felt, and though I pray for the next season to now arrive, I shall love you endlessly until that time shall come. Though I wonder about when, I do know that your promises will always stand. They do not fail, they do not fall, and they will not falter. You are the same today as you are tomorrow, so I take your hand.
I give you the pen, oh Lord, as I continue to trust you. Write my love story for your glory, write the story of my life for your glory, and use me so that you may be seen. However, you have already written the story that I do so seek, for you know the words on each page, the footnotes of each chapter, and the conclusion, so while I am unaware of the story that is unfolding, I shall remain in your faithfulness for you will never fail me.
Lord, you know my heart. I do not ask for much, and the gentle whispers that you have heard those sleepless night come from the deepest yearnings of my heart, and as I pray for your hand to guide me and my future husband, I shall fall endlessly in love with you, for it is because of you that I am free.
You and your endless mercy are the reason I am able to walk with you, the reason I can live in grace, and the reason I can write the words I do now, so to you I shall run. Even when I am married and a mom, I shall not forget the words I write now, for you are worthy of my praise now and then; however, even if I am single and not a mom, I will still praise you, for you are worthy of my praise, and I shall pick up my cross and follow you.
““You are worthy, O Lord,
To receive glory and honor and power;
For You created all things,
And by Your will they exist and were created.”” Revelation 4:11
I shall praise you both in the waiting and in the blessing, for it is because of you that you all things happen. You are the Author worthy to be praised and credited, and to you Lord, I shall humble myself to you.
Your compassion will never fail me, your portion overflows, and you will not lead me into disaster, but into hope, so Lord, as I sit here, I trust you, and I am ready for the next season if you allow it. I am ready to be a wife to a godly man, a mother to children, and though I may not know what to do in those unknown times where I sit alone while everyone else is laughing and having fun, with you by my side, you will see me through.
“As for God, His way is perfect;
The word of the Lord is proven;
He is a shield to all who trust in Him.” Psalm 18:30
As I wait, oh Lord, I will have faith in you, for your way is perfect. I endlessly seek you, I endlessly love you, and in the storm, I praise you, and in the calm I worship you. So dear Lord, as you hear the deepest prayers of my heart, please allow them to occur sooner than later, but one thing is certain, no matter what the future may hold or no matter when it shall occur, you will forever be my first love, for though we were sinners, you still died for us; therefore, I thank you Lord, for loving us, for if it was not for your grace, I would not be the woman I am today, nor would I be writing to you now.
I love you, oh Lord, and you promises shall forever stand, for your faithfulness will be forever great.
In Jesus’ name I pray,