“How do you feel about being a woman who isn’t like others? Isn’t it odd to be different when everyone else is the same,” one asked. This question has often been asked to me, for I am a different kind of woman who is not normally in the spotlight, for godly women are normally silenced, ignored, or talked bad about in various forms, but does that make me feel “odd?” Not in the slightest, in fact, it makes me glad that the woman I am becoming is a woman who is choosing to go right when the world goes left.
I want to remain an innocent woman who waits until marriage rather than indulging in the lusts of the world, and I would rather be a gentle and quiet soul who does not seek to be loud or always in need of the last word. I want to be a woman whose faith is strong, who seeks truth rather than the pleasures of the world, and who is kind-hearted. I want my beauty to be found in the depths of my soul where my love for Christ burns bright, for the heart of a person is where true beauty is found, not on the artificial layer that our world has become obsessed with.
“Do not let your adornment be merely outward—arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel— rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God.” 1 Peter 3:3-4
I want to be so in love with Jesus, that everyone sees Him throughout me. I want to be more consumed with what He finds acceptable, for I could care less about social media, I could care less about the “likes,” I could care less about the “trends,”and I could care less about the “beauty standards,” for I am not insecure due to knowing that my worth is found in Jesus; therefore, I do not need anyone, or anything, to tell me what I need or do not need, for beauty is found in the depths of one’s soul, not the outside.
As a young woman, I am not a woman of “many friends,” and I truly do not care, for I’d rather only have a few friends rather than having many, for how many of tose “many friends” truly care about your walk with Christ? I am not a girl who goes to parties, I am not a girl who seeks to be seen, and I am a girl who sits alone in the library while everyone else chatters away about someone or something they saw perpetuated in some obscure way online. I am the girl who smiles at everyone, because smiling is the kindest gesture you could show a stranger, an dI am the girl who has no plans on Friday nights, for I do not care about “being on the run.”
“For do I now persuade men, or God? Or do I seek to please men? For if I still pleased men, I would not be a bondservant of Christ.” Galatians 1:10
I am not your average twenty-something year old female, but that’s okay, because I like the woman I am turning into, for the woman I am turning into is becoming a well-watered woman who is rooted in truth. I am a woman who is growing more in love with God, who is growing more unique in her purpose, and who does not care what the world thinks, because at the end of the day, I am not here to please man, but I am here to glorify God.
I feel as if society has projected this “ideal model” that young women must be like, for all around, I see young women acting the exact same way by being loud, seeking many likes on social media, seeking to be seen, and seeking human approval.. It is truly sad, for women are becoming the “same mold” rather than embracing individuality and uniqueness in Christ.
Their personalities are the same, their actions are the same, their makeup is the same, and they all seem to be morphing into that “ideal standard,” and I do not seek that. Society is against God, it is evident with each passing day, and I do not seek to “fit an ideal model,” for I am a child of God who’s worth expounds far more than rubies, and He thought I was worth dying for; therefore, this world shall not place an “ideal model” onto my life, for God says my worth is priceless, and one cannot place a standard on what He calls priceless.
“Create in me a clean heart, O God,
And renew a steadfast spirit within me.” Psalm 51:10
The woman I am becoming is not the woman society promotes, for the woman I am becoming is a woman who is even more rooted in truth, who is even more dedicated to spreading the love of Jesus, and who is even more passionate about things that pertain to God. The woman I am becoming requires me to let go of anything that is holding me back from giving my all to Christ. The woman I am becoming requires me to let go of anything that is not edifying to my walk with Christ, and the woman I am becoming requires me to continuously examine my heart to ensure that nothing harmful infiltrates, for out hearts is where life is found.
The woman I am becoming is not of the “ideal standard,” and I don’t want her to be. I want to be higher than the standards this world advocates for, for I want to be a classy woman who seeks to be a feminine woman in the eyes of God. I seek to be a woman who inspires change, who inspires other Christian woman to embrace their womanhood, their femininity, and their design that God created them in, for there is nothing wrong with being a woman who lives in the feminine and godly design given to us by God.
Continuously I pray that God takes away any desires that reflect the world, for the world will destroy anyone. The world is a place where “good” is considered evil while evil is being promoted as good. If my heart grows prideful, I pray that God humbles me, if my heart bears bad fruit, I pray God prunes me and convicts me, and if my heart is in distress, I pray God reals me back and teaches me a lesson. If I am to grow in Christ, I must accept the fact that both rain and sunshine will make me grow, and growing comes with growing pains, and I gladly accept them, for God calls me to be uncomfortable, not comfortable, for one does nor grow in stagnancy.
“And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.” Romans 12:2
The woman I am becoming is not the woman the world seeks to be, but it is the woman I want to be, I seek God’s heart continuously, I seek to make Him known, and I seek to make Him my number one priority within my life. With this being addressed, it is known that I am not the kind of woman who you’ll find at the places people are at today, for I have garnered a reputation for being an innocent woman within my lifetime, and I am quite okay with being known as innocent, for innocence is a virtue that many do not have. With that stated, I do not seek to be the kind of woman who has to have the last word, and I do not want to be the kind of woman who needs to be loud to be heard, for silence speaks louder than words, and I want the gentleness of my spirit to do the talking, not a harsh demeanor.
I do not seek to fit the mold given to us by society, for I seek to be a woman who is after God’s heart, who stands up for truth, who refuses to compensate her values and standards, and who refuses to place her faith on the back burner. This woman many not be the “envied woman,” but it is known that society has things wrong, and what God wants for women surpasses more than the “ideals” and the “morals” that our world has projected throughout the years.
A Proverbs 31 woman is the kind of woman I seek to be, and that is the woman I am becoming. That is the woman I am happy that I am becoming, this is the woman that God is molding me to be, and this is the woman I shall be.
“Therefore, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.” 1 Corinthians 10:31
This is the woman I am, and from this day forward, I am a woman whose faith is stronger than ever, who’s love for God is abounding, and who’s desire to seek God’s heart has grown stronger. I choose to fall in love with Jesus every single day, I choose to be a woman who places Him above the world, and I choose to be a godly woman who’s radiant in Christ rather than being lost in the world. I choose to be a woman who’s set upon a hill, not clumped together in the “same mold” perpetuated to us by Hollywood or magazines.
I am a godly woman, and it is because of Christ that I can be this woman, so to answer that question, no, it does not bother me to be a woman who does not fit that mold, for I would rather be a woman who is captivated by God rather than being caught up in the ways of the world, for this world has become filled with darkness, and I want to be a godly woman who radiates Christ, and I shall never feel “odd” or “uncomfortable” about my morals or values, for in the eyes of God, my morals and values are precious and valued.