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Dear Good girl,
I was just like you. I was a good girl, a girl with good grades, a girl who could not stand to make below a certain GPA, a girl who listened to all the rules, a girl who wore her best dress on Sunday, and the girl who never did anything wrong. I was called “Goodie Two Shoes,” I was labeled so many names, and I was bullied for it, but I was a good girl, and that was all that mattered.
At one point, I became a perfectionist. I had to be a good girl, I had to have a good reputation, I had to get into my dream college, I had to make my parents proud, I had to do all of these things, and as I continued to gain academic awards, a good reputation, and all of these things, I still felt a void.
It was as if the good things weren’t enough, it was as if I could not do enough, and I still felt broken. No amount of good grades, no amount of shiny medals, and amount of good was enough, for I felt empty.
I was that girl who “thought” she was a Christian due to her parents, and I was sorely wrong. I went around calling myself a Christian when I didn’t even know what a Christian was. I went to church, I went to Christian school, and I said the blessing over the food at dinnertime, but that’s it.
Repentance? What was that?
Coming to Jesus? What?
Salvation? Come again?
I continued to be a good girl; more good grades, inductions into the middle school Honors Society, becoming an officer in the society, running a fierce campaign to be class president 4 years in a row, and getting involved with other “academic bling” as a lot of people call it. I would ignore those feelings of feeling empty, for I was getting all I wanted, so I could not complain. I made good grades, I made my parents happy, and I was known as the “sweet, good girl,” so I had all I needed, or so I thought.
It wasn’t until the end of my sixth grade year that I finally had the blindfold ripped off, and God showed me that I was not a “good girl.” I was born into sin, I was a sinner, and my sin put Jesus on the cross, and the Holy Spirit showed me my sin on the cross. In almost an instant, I broke down into pure tears as pure conviction flooded my heart, and God told me “Do you choose me or do you choose earthly things?”
In that moment, I had to choose to either choose Christ or this world, and looking at my sin, I did not want to have that baggage anymore. I battled stress, anxiety due to the fear of failing, and depression, that I wanted it all gone. My “good girl” ways made me a girl who was in pain, a girl who never rested, and a girl of restlessness, and I wanted God.
That night, I broken down to my mom and told her I was not a Christian, but that I want God. I asked her “How do I receive Jesus, because I want Him! I want Jesus, for I need Him!” That night, I gave my life to Jesus Christ, and my walk with Christ began. I was a month from my thirteenth birthday, and my good girl “obsession” was no longer my defining point in my life, but it was now Jesus.
BEING A “GOOD GIRL,” ISN’T ALL THAT GLAMOROUS
I know many girls out there were just like me “good girls.” You make good grades, you follow all the rules, you aren’t doing what the other girls your age are doing, you study hard, you are above your grade level, and you have a good reputation, but you feel empty. For some reason, you cannot explain the void you feel, but it’s because you are missing the most important person you will ever need; Jesus.
“Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me.” John 15:4-8
No matter how many good grades you make, you are nothing without Jesus. No amount of academic bling or achievements are worth it if you do not want a relationship with Jesus, so that is what you feel empty. You could be the richest girl in the world with private jets and mansions in every State, but if you do not have Christ, you will never be fully satisfied. Why is it that many people who “have it all” commit suicide? Marilyn Monroe was deemed one of the most beautiful women, yet she committed suicide as well as many other actors, singers, and those in other careers.
These people have the good jobs, the good money, the good reputation, and the “good life,” yet it wasn’t enough to keep them from ending their lives, but again, without Jesus, you will never have enough and no amount of success can fill that void. Without Christ, you might as well throw everything else away, for it is not going to save you. Your money cannot save you, your job cannot save you, your good girl attitude cannot save you, but only Christ can. What good does it do a person if they gain the whole world but loses their own soul?
“It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.” Mark 10:25
There was a reason Jesus said it was easier for a camel to endure the eye of a needle than it is for a rich man to enter heaven, for when you become so consumed on your riches, your goodness, and your reputation, you lose sight of God. When you have it “all,’ you think “Why do I need this” or “Why do I need God if I already have all that I want,” but through you may think you have it all, you cannot deny that void in your heart that aches and turns every single day and night.
“For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast.” Ephesians 2:8-9
It is though Christ and Christ alone that you are saved, and you are saved by grace and not of earthly riches and pride. The reason Christ said that these things cannot save you is to prevent pride. Some people might say “Well, look what I did for Jesus” or “Look what I am doing.” Faith is not about boasting, it is not about you, and it’s not a competition, but it is about what you will surrender to Christ, is about giving everything up and picking up your cross to follow Him, and it is about humbling yourself to fall at His feet and confess that you need Him, for without HIm, you are nothing.
NO ONE IS GOOD, NO NOT ONE
“As it is written:
There is none righteous, no, not one;” Romans 3:10
You are not a good girl. You may seem like one, but no one is good; not one person. If you’ve ever told a lie, then that makes you trustworthy. If you have ever lost your temper, then that makes you carless, and if you have ever been prideful, then that makes you haughty. Does that sound like a good person? No, for due to you being born in sin, that disqualify you for being truly “good” in your own form.
Through Christ, you are made perfect and you brokenness is what He wants. Jesus did not come to heal those who were well, but He came to Heal those who were sick, and a lot of sick people aren’t “good girls,” but they are broken girls, and you are a broken girl too in some way. You might not be broken like some others, but you are broken due to sin, and you need to realize that you are not perfect.
You do not have it all together, your grades aren’t going to save you, your parents are not going to save you, and your reputation cannot and will not save you. Your “good girl” status is not going to win you “brownie points” with God, but it is through your love, dedication, and walk with Christ that will find you favor with Him. God does not want your A’s, He does not want your rewards, but He wants you.
He wants your heart, your soul, your mind, and you! He wants to to put Him first, He wants you to place Him at the forefront of your ind, He wants you to walk with Him, He wants you to fellowship with Him, and He wants you to thrive in His love and grace, and you being so adamant on being a “good girl” is holding you back from living in God’s goodness! You are not good, but you seek to be good when you’re running from the one who is Good.
Dear good girls, I am not saying for you to give up and “fail,” but you cannot save yourself, and you need Jesus. Though it is good to be a good citizen, that is not all there is to life, for Jesus is who you need, for if you die without Him, your earthly goods with be the first thing to turn on you when you stand before God and have to answer as to why you did not love Him.
“Seek the Lord while He may be found,
Call upon Him while He is near.” Isaiah 55:6
Find goodness in God, make Him you Redeemer and your Savior, and have a personal relationship with God, for He loves you, He wants you, and He wants to thrive in His grace rather than in earthly riches.