This is another one of those posts that I kept deleting, but God likes to place these posts on my heart, and I am thankful for the conviction, but sometimes it makes you uncomfortable, but I will listen and post this anyways. This is a lesson that God has been teaching me for a long time, and I have been making strides to implement God’s guidance into my life!
So this post has been on my heart since Saturday, for He was convicting me strongly about this topic since then, and I am finally posting this after days of deliberation.
I am pretty bold in standing up for what I believe in.
I am not afraid to stand up for Christ, for my political views, and I’m not ashamed of being a virgin in a world full of sex-addicts, but when you talk about taking away makeup, then I am somewhat afraid, but today, I am ending that trend.
When I was in high school, my mom wouldn’t let me wear makeup until I was 17 years old, and I thank her for that. Makeup has become something that makes me feel bad about my natural self, and I am pretty sure every single woman can agree with me, and I am pretty sure any man can also agree that women do tend to always gravitate towards makeup.
I blame society, because society says “you need to wear this to be beautiful” or “you need that to be beautiful,” and these are flat out lies. Sadly, I have always dealt with low self-esteem due to the beauty trends and the beauty “standards” of the world we live in.
We live in a world where magazines are photoshopped, where plastic surgery is on demand, and where makeup brands are coming out with new products for new reasons. It doesn’t matter who you are, society will always tell you that you need “to improve,” for nothing is good enough for them.
Makeup has always made me feel horrible about myself when I would take it off. I would look at my natural face and wonder “Why can’t I look like women who wake up and go to sleep looking flawless,” but then it dawned on me. I am a real human being and not a fake one.
The women that always look flawless are living lives that aren’t real or genuine. They only show parts of their lives that they want you to see instead of ones that show who they really are. If you were to take away the makeup and the glamour from women in Hollywood or New York, you would barely be able to recognize them due to how much makeup they wear each day.
I have a younger sister who always criticizes herself, and it makes me sad. My sister is beautiful, and I have no idea why she wants to change things, but then God put the spotlight on me. Here I am wondering why my younger sister is wanting to change herself when I am doing the same thing. Each day, I find something else I want to change when it comes to my complexion and that is a double standard.
I cannot tell you to embrace your natural beauty if I do not do so. I am the kind of girl who wants to practice what she preaches, and that’s exactly what I am doing today.
God began to speak to my heart recently about embracing my natural beauty since Saturday, and God has been showing me that I don’t need to continue to put myself into self-loathing anymore.
I don’t wake up looking “flawless,” I don’t wake up with model ready looks, and I don’t wake up as if I just waltzed of a red carpet. Instead, this is my real life and this is the natural “I woke up like this” me. I refuse to only show people who I am when I look “decent,” because that’s not real!
This morning, I woke up in the dress that I wore yesterday due to studying for a midterm, I have no makeup whatsoever on my face, my eyebrows are insane, and this is reality. This is the raw Christina, and I do not wake up “perfect” like a Kardashian, and I don’t want too because the Kardashians are horrible role models.
“I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.” Psalm 139:14
I am tried of comparing myself to people who are living fake lives, who are photoshopped in magazines, and who are only wearing masks! I am not going to subject myself to self-hatred anymore, because God says that I am fearfully and wonderfully made the way I am, so this is me unfiltered, and quite frankly, I don’t care what society says anymore, because they have done so much damage that their opinion is no longer credible.
This is as genuine as I can get, but this is the real me, and this is the me that someone will one day be waking up too, and this is the person I want someone to fall in love with, because I would rather a man love me for the real me rather than a mask that is deceiving.
I am trying to embrace my natural beauty, and I know that a lot of ladies are wanting to as well. For the entire week, I have not been wearing much makeup, and that has been a challenge, but again, I cannot tell you to embrace your natural beauty if I refuse to embrace mine. I am not going to apologize to society for the way God made me, and I refuse to change myself.
In the end, I don’t want to a man to love me for the makeup on my face; instead, I want to be loved for my imperfections. If a person only loves me when I “look good,” then he only loves the mask that I am wearing, and that is not love.
Love is a person thinking you are beautiful even if you are sick, tired, and dizzy. Love is a person thinking you are the most gorgeous person ever even when you just woke up, and love is a person thinking your beauty originates from your heart instead of what is on the outside, because the beauty of the heart will never change.
In reality, I am not a model and I am not a person who just walked off a runway, but I am an average girl who is clumsy at times, who is vulnerable, and who has bad days here and there.
I am a human not a robot.
Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing,
“But a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised.” Proverbs 31:30
Beauty is fleeting and makeup and charm are deceptive, so I want my love for the Lord too make me beautiful. I don’t want to focus on “living up to the world’s beauty expectations” all the time, so I am doing what is most challening for me, which is embracing my natural beauty with no fear.
You don’t need foundation or makeup to be beautiful!
You don’t need to do your hair for an hour to be beautiful!
You do not have to wear certain clothes to be beautiful!
You are beautiful the way you are and Jesus died for you the way you are!
So God created man in His own image; in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them.” Genesis 1:27
You were made in His image, and you don’t need any makeup or “mask” to cover that! Embrace your natural beauty! Currently, I am on a mission to embrace myself and it’s taken God to show me that He loves me even if I am having a bad day.
Join me in accepting yourself the way you are, because you will find so much peace and confidence in Christ when you realize that your beauty comes from the heart. Someone will love you for the raw and unfiltered you, so don’t hide that person, because that person you are wanting to so desperately hide will capture the heart of someone.
“But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look at his appearance or at his physical stature, because I have refused him. For the Lord does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7
I refuse to be a slave to my makeup products anymore. I am now going to embrace who I am naturally instead of looking for things to change. I am not perfect, and I never will be, but Jesus died for me so I could have a way to the Father, and that is what matters! My heart is what the Lord looks at, and I would rather focus on my heart than the appearance, and just remember that! You are beautiful the way you are, so focus on your heart and what you can do for the Lord, and that will make you more beautiful than makeup ever could!