I am merely in my early twenties right now, and I know that I have a long way to go, but time is fleeting. I remember when I was a 4 year old girl, but here I am now 20 years old, in college, and making steps further into my life and into the purpose that God has for me.
I want to be temperate, to be loving, to be sweet, and I want to be understanding and encouraging in all situations even if I don’t know the answer. I want to be be wise like Solomon, obedient like Ruth, and faithful in prayer like Hannah. I want to weep when my enemies are hurt like David, I want fearlessly proclaim Christ like Paul, and I want strive to be like Christ in all I do.
“But now, O Lord,
You are our Father;
We are the clay, and You our potter;
And all we are the work of Your hand.” Isaiah 64:8
That’s the woman I want to be, and I hope God shapes me to be that woman. No matter how far He has to bend me or mold me, I want to be a woman that unendingly loves Him and others. I want to willingly wash the feet of Jesus with my tears like the woman did to Christ when He walked the earth, and I want to willingly admit my shame to God like David.
She opens her mouth with wisdom,
And on her tongue is the law of kindness.” Proverbs 31:26
I want to be temperate and slow to anger, for a harsh answer will cause wrath. I want to be kind to everyone even if others aren’t kind to me, and I want to be helpful even when others aren’t helpful to me. The woman I want to be is selfless, for I want to care about the needs of others before I care about mine.
That’s the woman I pray to be. I don’t know about you, but in my deepest heart, I want to be a woman who smiles even when tears are wanting to cascade down my face. I want to be a woman that stands up for myself and stands before the waves with no fear because I know that God will split the sea for me to walk through it, and I want to be a woman who selflessly loves even if people don’t love me back.
Even though I am single right now, I still want to be the best wife my future husband could have ever prayed for. I want to be loving, helpful, loyal, and I want to make him feel loved each and every day he wakes up. If my husband and I were to have an argument, I refuse to let the sun go down on our wrath, and I want to be a woman who will fight for my husband and not let anyone come between what God has put together. When God puts two people together no man should separate them.
“Her children rise up and call her blessed;
Her husband also, and he praises her:” Proverbs 31:28
I want to be a woman who is the best mother that my future children could have ever asked for. I want to be their role model, I want to be an example as to what my daughters should be and what my sons should look for in a wife of their own. I want my husband and children to be blessed by me, and to always remember the sacrifices I made for them.
I might just be a young lady right now, but that’s the woman I am working so hard on becoming. I want to be a wife, a mom, and most importantly, I want to imitate Christ in all things! I want to be like Him, I want to love like Him, and I want to forgive like Him. Christ is the greatest example of what love is, and without Him, I would be nothing.
I have my faults, I am not perfect, and I stumble, but with Christ, He is my strength, and He lifts me up when I have fallen. I might not know all the answers right now, and I might not know what my future holds, but God knows my future, and it is full of joy, love, happiness, and unshakable faith.
“Do not let your adornment be merely outward—arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel— rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God.” 1 Peter 3:3-4
I want to be a woman who is meek, gentle, tender, and not loud. I have met many women who were loud, and I don’t want to be loud. I don’t want to draw attention to myself, I don’t want to be in the limelight, but I want to live my life in simplicity, in normality, and just as a sweet person who is gentle and meek.
The woman I want to be may not fit in with society, for society promotes a woman as “fierce,” “loud,” “a feminist,” and as a woman who “wants to beat men at their own game.” I don’t want to be better than men, I don’t want to be a feminist, I don’t want to be loud, and I do not want to be fierce in an unholy and ungodly way. I want to be fierce in Christ, but I don’t want to be “fierce” by make a scene by “protesting the streets with a sign in my hand.”
I want to be a woman who isn’t like most women. I want to be different, but in a good way. I want to do all that I can for Christ, I want to be Christ-like, and I want to be a woman after God’s heart.
That’s the woman I want to be, and as each day comes and goes, God is shaping me into being the woman I pray to be, and I thank God everyday for His grace, because without His grace, I would’n’t be able to be this woman.
I want to be a woman of integrity, faith, love, joy, kindness, sweetness, happiness, gentleness, tenderness, and the list could go on and on. I don’t know what kind of woman or man you want to be, but with God’s grace, you can be whoever you want to be as long as you are doing all things for His glory. You just have to be willing to step out of your comfort zone for change to happen, and that change is worth being uncomfortable.
So this is the woman I want to be.
What kind of person do you want to be?