Life has been busy, and I’ve recently had to slow down and take a deep breath. I did miss my posting day yesterday due to a lot of work, but I have gotten some of it under control.
Anyways, I had lunch with a friend not too long ago, and it ended up with being told that I should “let loose” or “be like the rest,” but that is the one thing I will not ever do, because being placed in a box strips you from individuality.
I’ve had a lot of negativity in the past during middle and high school. I was considered boring, not social, and that I needed to go socialize and “have fun.” It is no lie that I would rather spend my Friday night in a library reading “Sense and Sensibility” by Jane Austen rather than go to a wild college party where questionable substances are being served.
I am the girl that I am for a reason, and I am this way due to my upbringing, due to God making me in His design, and due to just me being me. My parents did give my freedom as I grew up, but they did shelter me and had rules. Though my parents allowed me to be expressive in my personality, I had limits.
However, I’m not the normal college age girl who goes running the town at 3 am like some of my friends did when it came to the Super Bowl. When I was in high school, I wasn’t allowed to be myself due to fear, and I now am finally being outgoing again and I don’t need to be placed in another box.
I also do not want my college experience to end with me falling away from Christ, because Christ is my lifeline, so I would rather be the girl who is quote on quote “obsessed with all things Jesus” and who reads old books than be the one who is known for wild rendezvous.
I am not ashamed of being who I am, because in today’s society, everyone wants to be like each other.
I want to be different, and I want to have my own personality.
Trust me, being different is okay, because I am far from normal in a lot of opinions
My favorite book is “War and Peace,” I love classical music, whenever someone asks me to go to the library, I get excited for I love being around books. I especially love books from the 1800’s, I love Shakespeare, Jane Austen, and if you haven’t noticed, then my favorite subject is English.
I love to belt songs out in car, I love to add a little extra to recipes when I am cooking to put my own flare to the dish, and all of my conversations always end up being a conversation about Christ and God’s perfect grace, because I can’t stop talking about Him.
I didn’t have many friends in middle school or parts of high school due to always wanting to talk about Jesus, and I also didn’t believe in gossiping, and high school was full of drama, so I decided that I would stay away from that. My passions labeled me as an “abnormal girl” for the longest time, and it did bother me when I was younger, but not anymore.
I might be into “boring” things that can make a person yawn if you aren’t into Leo Tolstoy or Jane Austin like I am, but that’s not what matters. What matters is that two snowflakes are never alike.
Why should we have to make others happy when we should be pleasing God?
If you like music, then embrace it!
If you like culinary, then embrace it!
If you like theatre, then embrace it!
“I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.” Psalm 139:14
Not matter what you love, embrace that because it makes you who you are. No two people are like. Though you might be able to find someone just like you, they are still different in their own ways.
I embrace who I am, and I am unapologetic for it, because God gave me these passions and loves for a reason, and He gave you your passions for a reason as well.
Even if you think that what you love may seem”silly,” God can use the little things that you think are “worthless’ and can make them into something big, so always embrace what you love.
What makes you, you?
What makes you the person you are and how can you use it for the glory of God?
“But it is good to be zealous in a good thing always, and not only when I am present with you.” Galatians 4:18
Don’t ever let anyone dull your shine, because though you may seem “awkward” to others, you weren’t meant to be like them, but you were meant to stand out for good and for morality, so don’t be sorry for being you, because Christ thought you worth dying for just the way you are.
So embrace those passions, those quirks, and the little things, because one day, someone will fall in love with everything about you, and Jesus already loves you, because He shed His blood for you, so don’t ever think you have to place your passions in a box to make yourself seem acceptable, because you were never meant to be another number in a room, but you were meant to be a canvas for God to use.