I did ballet from when I was 4 to 11 years old
I was in the highest advanced class that you could ever imagine and I was breaking records in my little small town when it came to ballet. I was always given solo dances, I was always the ballet dancer that my dance instructor taught one-on-one, and whenever we did our bows at the end of the recital, she would take me with her and let me bow with her! My road to a ballet career was paved, and I was so happy as a little girl.
I had people telling me I would go far in my ballet career, I started at 4 years old in ballet, and it took off! My first ever ballet teacher graduated from Juliard, she was amazing, and she took me under her wing! I loved her, and she was the best ballet teacher, and I still thank her to this day!
However, she ended up moving back to NYC, and I ended up getting a new ballet teacher, which she was horrible, but everyone told me that with how fast I was learning, I would go to NYC to become a professional ballet dancer, but there was a cost.
Whenever I would get bruises, my new ballet instructor would yell at me, she would make me pay by doing extra exercises more, and I was shamed in front of the other girls of “what not to do.” She also put me on a diet, for she told me “Little girls who want to be in ballet must stay very thin,” and I stopped eating.
My parents wondered why I stopped eating, and they would physically have to beg me to eat, and I never told them what my ballet teacher said. I was only 6 years old at this time and I wanted a career in ballet! My heart was set on being a professional ballet dancer, and I would do anything to achieve it!
And I did.
I went on to preforming on big stages, I went live on television where thousands of people were watching other professional girls and I do complicated ballet routines, and I was making my ballet dream come true. When I was 8 years old, I had a lot of people in New York shocked and interested in bettering my ballet career, but as this was happening, I was suffering at a cost.
I couldn’t play at school, I couldn’t get any bruises, I had to put on heavy makeup due to the lights, and I wasn’t eating for I thought “little girls needed to be very thin.” My parents were still wondering what was going on, and at one point, they had a talk with my ballet teacher, but she denied the claims for she didn’t want to “anger my parents,” but, my parents were skeptical of her, but I would tell them how happy I was, and I would cry at the thought of quitting, so I stayed.
I continued my ballet career for the next 5 years, and by age 9, I was in the most advanced level I could have ever imagined being at! I was in the same class as professional dancers, and I was so happy! I went to every practice for 5 hours, I danced at home, and I was destined to moving to NYC to make this dream of mine a reality, and I even wanted to go to Juliard to further my ballet, for I wanted to be just like my first dance teacher.
During my last 2 years of ballet, I began to get tired of the stuff I was being forced to do. I would get yelled at for eating the wrong things, I would get yelled at for having bruises on my legs and arms, and I grew tired of it. If I messed up my routine just by a slight move, I had to do it 10 times in a row in front of the entire class until my teacher felt like she was satisfied.
In my last year of ballet, I told my parents what was happening and that I was done with ballet, and they stopped my ballet career. When they found out of my “diet” and how I was being yelled at, they grew very angry, and I was no longer allowed to continue with my ballet, and I don’t blame them.
I am not going to lie, I do miss dancing, but I do not miss the abuse I went through as a very young girl. I still dance in my free time, I still do ballet routines in large areas when no one is watching, but I do not want to purse a career in ballet for I know what the cost is, and I am not willing to put myself under that cost.
“She is more precious than rubies,
And all the things you may desire cannot compare with her.” Proverbs 3:15
Christ says that I am worth more than rubies, so why am I going to put myself under a strict diet or allow someone to abuse me like my dance teacher did? I am a child of God, and I am not going to allow someone to put me into chains and to take away my joy.
If I would have had my first dancer teacher continue to be my instructor, then I would have continued my ballet career, because she was wonderful, she was sweet, and she also loved Christ for she would always talk about Him unendingly, and I wish she would have continued being my ballet instructor for I probably wouldn’t have quit.
“Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own?” 1 Corinthians 6:19
If you’re having to sacrifice your heath for something, then it is wrong. Your body is considered a temple, so why are you going to let something in this world destroy that? Though I quit ballet a few years before I began following Christ, I knew that what I was being put through was wrong and not good for me, so I made the decision to quit.
You are worth more than rubies as well, so why are you going to allow someone to put you under circumstances that put you in pain, make you suffer, or cause you to not enjoy what you are doing? Yes, we all have to make sacrifices to get where we want to go, but never to the point where you are risking your health for it!
Now, I don’t know if anyone else is in ballet, and I am not insulting anyone, but this was my experience, and it was not a good one. You are worth more than someone’s puppet, you should not have to give up your dignity to please someone, and since Christ died for you, He wants you to live in freedom!
I am thankful that I quit ballet or else who knows what my mentality would be right now. I would be stuck in chains of “You can’t eat this” or “You can’t get any bruises or we will take away your dance solo!” I refuse to live in pain when Christ set me free, so why should you?
“Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free,[a] and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage.” Galatians 5:1
Don’t put yourself into chains that Christ set you free from, and no dream is worth stealing you joy and health, so choose joy in Christ, and say no to pain, even if it means saying “no” to something that could bring success, because is fame really worth it if you lose your own soul?